I had my final visit with my Physical Therapist (for my finger injury) this past Thursday.
I
ran out of Effexor and went into nasty-ass Withdrawal. I'd forgotten
the Rx was refillable. LOL. When I finally figured that out (after two
days). I called in a refill and my Mom picked it up for me (the world
was spinning too much for me to drive).
14 hours later I was "back to normal" (whatever that means).
The
chair I spend most of my time in (and paid too much for last December)
literally broke. Two of the legs broke off. The thing started
mysteriously tilting about a week ago and as the days went by the tilt
progressed even more. I couldn't figure out where it was tilting. It
hadn't occorred to me to check the legs.
Finally it just started tilting very quickly last night and the next thing I knew, my fat ass was on the floor.
Speaking of fat, I guess I was too fat for it. LOL
Actually
it was a pretty flimsy chair. I didn't realize that until I borrowed my
mom's chair while I await the arrival of a replacement.
When I
bought this chair I had only been looking at the "task/secretarial"
style as my Mom had talked me out of getting what I really wanted.
What I wanted was more like an "executive" style. Basically like the one I'd had for years that I abandoned in Atlanta.
Well now I'm getting what I want. In fact it's even nicer than the chair I left in Atlanta. If you're interested, click here to see it. It's supposed to be delivered sometime on Tuesday.
I'm still enjoying having Linux
on my hard drive (finally!) although it would be nice to have both of
my hard drives usable. Right now I've got a boot partition on my first
hard drive and everything else on my 2nd. This is a waste of about 98%
of my space on the first drive and there's nothing I can do about it. I
still can't install Windows at all (unless I go back to my old
configuration which then won't let me install Linux....
I figured I'm due for one or two more calls to my PC maker's
tech support, but I hate calling and I figured I'd just enjoy the fun
of having Linux installed (since that was the biggest part of my goal)
for a while before tacking the rest. I still expect that they may have
to send somebody out to do some work inside the box. I'm sure as hell
not doing it. LOL
OH speaking of Linux, I've got a few sreenshots of my recent desktop (and some past ones) up on deviantArt. My current one (in two incarnations) is here and here, if you're interested.
I've
not seen my therapist in weeks. I don't know if/when I'll go back to
her. We kind of hit a brick wall. Her goal is to get me out and about
and I've never been one to do that (even when I'm "well"). Going
to/from work doesn't count.
I do think I'll give school a try
though, because it's the only way I'll ever stand a chance of getting a
job in the IT field when the time comes to look for a job.
I've
had it with the travel industry and call centers. If I went back to
that, you might hear about me on the evening news at some point...
I've
been rather depressed on and off lately. The future seems bleak. I have
no interest in much of anything outside of being at my computer. It's a
great escape I suppose. I won't tell you when I last showered. 
Y'know
it's funny, in the past when I've gotten this bad, I've fallen hard for
someone I met online and it's helped me cope (a few times I'd meet the
person, more often I wouldn't and it would just end for one reason or
other).
I'd "met" someone online about 2 years ago (not long after my ex told me it was over).
I'd really hit it off with this new found friend online. We talked on the phone several times over a period of many months.
Then
my situation changed because I was forced to move to Phoenix and living
with my Mom made 95% of my private life pubic so it pretty much killed
my romance.
But besides that, I when I got here, I felt beaten
and defeated. "They won". I fought for months to avoid leaving Atlanta,
but when I was about to be homeless I had no choice.
But the whole experience left me a beaten man and I just didn't care about anything anymore, including romance.
So
the relationship quickly withered and died. It's just as well, I'm such
a mess right now that I need to get my head on straight. I told my
therapist I need to learn to relate to people in general before I
attempt another romance. She agreed.
And for months now, I've
just been apathetic. Heck, I've not even been the horny bastard I
typically am. I don't know if it's the medication, the depression or
both. Of course living with my mom kindo cramps my style, but I don't
know if I'd feel much different if I were alone.
In any event,
I'm just kinda coasting along here. Perhaps if/when I start school the
daily routine will help me get back on track. I hope so, because
nothing else I can think of off hand could.
I don't really know how schedules work, but I'd like to go to one of the community colleges here. I suppose I'd be looking at Winter (or maybe Spring?).
The Mental Health Clinic
I go go can help me out with this stuff and they may also pay for all
or a portion of it. I'm not fully clear on it, but they do pay for "voc
rehab" so we'll see.
I've not really checked into any of this yet. I figure I'd do so by the end of the year.
Well
I've babbled long enough now.
OK kids.
I'm outta here (for the moment).
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